Urban Dictionary

A friend of mine searched her name on Urbandictionary.com (seriouslysassymama.com) so I decided to do mine:

A non-dirty or disturbing young lady who is a great trust-worthy friend. Never has, and never will have any STDs. :-) Not a whore. (hahahhahahaha. Love it!)

Bob: See that Courtney chick over there?
Billy: Yeah. She's nice.
Joe: She's hot. And totally not a whore
Bob: Definitely not a wore
Billy: The biggest non-whore I know. Unlike Darren.

What to listen to

I've been wondering lately what the best thing to listen to in the car is. Even light rock/mix stations have songs that are crude or dirty, i.e. any Katy Perry song. I care. Even now, when Emma sorta doesn't know but sorta does know what's going on around her and what she hears, I care about what she's listening to. I didn't use to care. Growing up, we listened to really awful songs! "1-2-3-4, Get your woman on the floor" was a hit while I was a kid. Why was I listening to that?? Why did I sing along?? Where were my parents?? lol! It may be even different for boys and girls. Personally, I want my little girl to be as pure and innocent for as long as possible. Is that asking too much? Do parents of boys feel differently? Ponder. Some country music songs allude to sex or partying, especially "new" country. I love classical music but half the fun is knowing what you're listening to. It gets pretty dang boring, otherwise. There's the Christian station but even then, some of those songs get pretty dang cheesy. And I just can't listen to cheese after cheese after cheese. So what do we listen to? The sounds of silence? :-) Rubber ducky you're the one, ee-er, ee-er? :-) It's so hard to know! I guess I'll just flip through all of the stated above until I find something good. And if nothing's on, then we get to listen to Emma push her little music box for the ump-teenth time. ::sigh::

Ramblings again:

A lyric from a song keeps pounding my head today: I didn't do it But if I'd done it How could you tell me that I was wrong? That's from Chicago and it's about a bunch girls killing their husbands/boyfriends/lovers. BUT. Have that song in your head while you're perusing your favorite blogs: mama birth, etc, then you get a completely different mindset. I didn't have a c-section. But if I'd had one, how could you tell me that I was wrong?? Some women are scared to have a vaginal birth. Well. I'm scared to have a c-section. Scared of the process. Scared of having my options taken away. Scared of having surgery. I don't like being a patient. I'd much rather be on the "controlling" end. As nurses and doctors, we are, by nature, controlling. We want to control your environment and for your best interest, we tell you when you can get up, when you can get to bed, and when you can pee. It's a pretty messed up system and after hearing personal stories from friends on their experiences, it's actually changed the way I practice nursing. I listen more. I give more independence. ANYWAY. Going through my doctor's website today, I saw him say something on his blog that he thought that "natural birth" was a baby coming out of a woman's body be that by surgery or through a vaginal canal. And he's right. At the end of the day, you experience God's miracle of life. Do I think that straight up elective c-sections are right? Not really. I think when that happens, it's the woman being scared, not knowing what to expect. (I mean truly elective, not for a medical reason.) Do I think that a woman should be shoved into a class of "failure to wait" by doctors and have a c-section? No. I think that women should be given every opportunity to have a vaginal delivery. But am I going to tell someone that they did it wrong? No. Am I going to tell someone that their baby is somehow diffferent because they were born by c-section? Absolutely not. So why all the blogs demonizing this process? Let's encourage one another. Let's help educate one another. And by God, if He gave us a way to take out our babies, then we can trust that. These thoughts have given me a lot of peace today because for our next baby (no, I'm not pregnant) I'd like a similar experience I had with Emma and I'm so scared to have things go differently. But, I just have to trust that He has it all worked out.