Wednesday, November 9, 2011

No one panic. . .

Had my 36 week appointment today and was 3 cm dilated. It didn't really phase me until I was in the car on the way home. 3 cm?? What does that mean? How long? Crap, I'm not ready! Came home and went to my trusty google search. Mayo Clinic says:

Dilation isn't a good indicator of when labor will begin, but rather a general sign that you're getting ready for labor. Once you're in active labor, expect to dilate more quickly.

I'll take that. Although I'm not totally comforted by this. I'm completely re-examining last week: I got an "energy burst" and did lots of shopping and nesting for baby boy. Does that mean I'm going to go into labor soon? It's not necessarily an old wive's tale and not scientific fact either. However, this week, I'm so freaking tired. I fall asleep on the floor playing with Emma every day this week. (It's only for a few minutes. She'll push a musical toy and I'm right back up again.)

Anywho, so now I'm wondering, should I pack a bag? Do I need to prepare? Nursing tops, medela pump, pj's, oh my!! All of these things just make me go, "aaaccckkk" in my head. Am I really about to have a newborn? Noooooooooo. I'm so scared of the crazy. Crazy no sleep. Crazy hormones. Crazy hungry baby. Crazy Emma getting jealous. I can't do this. I change my mind, God. ::sigh:: Not really. I want this baby boy so badly . . . . Most of my prayers have just been for patience for the coming weeks. Lots. And Lots. Of prayers for patience. And for God to help me be a good mother and wife. I'm going to need so much help. . . On one hand I think I tend to overreact though. I was dreading today because I hate this appointment. I hate the cervical check because they're painful. I had completely psyched myself out and was almost crying before the doctor even did anything. And it wasn't that bad. So maybe I'm psyching myself out for this new baby. Maybe it won't be that bad. At least I know sort of what I'm doing. Right? Right? Anyone? Bueller? Bueller? ::sigh::

So here we are. Last month. Baby's coming. Look prepared!

8 comments:

  1. Can Adam play CoD at the hospital? Do they have internetz there?

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  2. You absolutely will know how to handle both "Bits" and Emma. I think the reason we are given babies so small and sleepy is to gradually "work them in" with the other children. You probably have more support than you want. I am on vacation the week after Thanksgiving, the middle week of December and the week after Christmas. I can't wait for my turn to help!!
    Two was the hardest combo for me--baby up all night and toddler up all day or so it seemed. John was born in May and when David got out of school for the summer he took over the housework and chasing after Paul. Oh what a relief, I thought I would loose my mind until then. Then by a "coincidence" (and by the grace of super fertility) Michael and Adam were both born in June so David watched the older children and I just took care of the baby and myself. I tell you this to drive home the point that you need lots of help with #2--allow us to help, tell us what you need. I am a paranoid nut about not intruding on my daughters-in-law but I am waiting for the phone call telling me which shifts with Bits are mine.
    I am so happy for you guys. Emma is such a treasure, that smile melts all hearts. I am thrilled for you all. Love you, Ann

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  3. No my sweet,sweet baby JB taught me to ask for help..then 30 some years later he stood at my beside all night in the hospital after a procedure reminding me to breathe. Love you John, you can't think anything else. Mom

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  4. Awww, cute comments!

    You're going to do so well, Courtney! You just have to take it one day at a time. You hear it all the time, but every time I get way stressed out about a move or the wedding, I just had to stop myself and think, "what is the next step" and just focus on that one thing. For you, right now, it's getting as much rest as you can, taking it easy and definitely getting names and numbers of those who can help! haha

    Each day until you get ready to deliver, just think about that day. Try your best to take a calm bath or relax somehow.

    Maybe you can set a few things out that way if you have to pack a bag quickly, you might have some stuff ready. Or make a quick checklist? I did that after the 1 hr notice to leave for Cuba. I came home and made a checklist because in that kind of craziness you can't think of what you should pack, ya know? I'm sure it's way crazier when you're in labor.

    Anywho, I'm gonna say a prayer for ya to help you stay nice and calm and for Him to remove all the stress, doubt, worry and anxiety. :)

    Love you, girl!

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  5. Mom, sometimes I need help with #2, then I notice there is an extra TP roll behind me on the lid and I just lol.

    -Adam

    On topic, HELP US!

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  6. Adam,
    LOL Glad you were able to resolve your "#2" issue. I turned that over to you years and years ago!! Good advice on taking one day at a time--I am praying for you guys, especially Bits. Love you, Mom

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  7. UPDATE:

    PANIC!

    -Adam [JK SORT OF :)]

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